oi lienda,

bella che fas?

Even I think that it's a little odd for me to be listening to this quintessential summer jam right at this very moment, a little more than a day after the official start of autumn with the chill of night creeping through my bedroom window. I hear tomorrow will be somewhat of a scorcher, though, so perhaps this is just a sign of things to come. Summer may be gone, but its aura lingers on. Come to think of it, this is perhaps one of the smoothest seasonal transitions I've ever experienced.

I'm a mess, I'm a wreck, and while I realize that I used to say that phrase quite often, this is actually the first time in a long time that something has hit me this hard. I never thought you'd be ingrained in my system so quickly, yet surely enough, you're there. You're there, and you're not there, and what eats away at me the most is knowing that you're too busy for me, anyway. You've got your own things to take care of, and that's fine. So do I. I was hoping that perhaps you'd give me a little bit of your time as I have done so for you, but I guess not. Oh well. In a week or so, I'll probably have forgotten all about you, anyway. Just energy invested in someone I saw potential in.

My first week of college life has been exceptionally fantastic. I love walking onto campus and seeing a familiar face or two on the way out. Sometimes I wish I could stick around and chat for a bit, but I've got class to go to, and I'm sure they've got places to be, as well. It's the little things, though, that puts me at ease and lifts my spirits. Every bit counts.

Anyway, its way past my bedtime, hahaha. Goodnight folks. Have a good one!

Mom's home!

After two long weeks, my mother has finally returned home! She brought me back a really cool shirt. I would describe it, but I think it's best if I show you guys, instead, so I'll be sure to take a picture of it the next time I eat pho. You'll see why, haha.

Sorry to anyone who caught me on my bad side today. I've been very irritable the entire day, despite getting off to a good start. School didn't help at all; class today was a snoozefest and the drive home was even worse. Hopefully tomorrow will be a bit better.

I still don't know what to do, or how to feel. Looking at the situation objectively, the best thing to do would probably be to just give up. On the other hand, I still have some hope left in me, but not much. If you fall, then I'll catch you. If you don't, then I won't get in the way. I don't know what else to say, really.

Anyway, I'm off to go work out a bit and then finish up some reading for tomorrow's classes. Have a nice night, everyone!

but you see, the thing is,

I just want you =)

Well, I'm feeling very inspired right now! Today was my first day of school. College life has officially begun, and although I'm still getting lost around campus, something about just being at school feels so familiar. My classes are pretty chill, and I ran into a lot of people today who I haven't seen for quite awhile! A trash can caught on fire as I was walking to my car, haha. Luckily, the drive home wasn't too bad, either.

Anyway, I don't really know what else to say right now. I consider myself incredibly blessed for all the opportunities I've been granted and for all the people in my life. I'm in such a good mood right now! I guess Gabe Bondoc is a big part of the reason why, as well as the moon. I think I have some sort of mystical, spiritual connection with it. I know, sounds stupid, right?! It may not look like a toenail right now, but it's bright and shining and beautiful nonetheless. In a couple of days, it'll be full, and perhaps in time, my life will begin to fill up again as well. I'm definitely loving it right now, though. There's just one thing that would make things feel li- ah, why should I spoil the fun? I'm sure you can figure it out for yourself.



Goodnight!