From now until whenever, this blog will be a place for me to put down my thoughts and feelings. My domain. My sanctuary. Mine and mine alone.
So what is mkyEND? What does it mean? Well, it traces back to the final line of Lupe Fiasco's song "Fighters", in which he says "Now we got just one more to go, l-u-p END. Lupe revealed in an interview that his next album will be his last album, hence "one more to go". He expressed his opinions on the state of hip-hop, stating that it was becoming too watered down, too meaningless, that it was dead. The "l-u-p" is a reference to the 8-bit gaming era of the original Nintendo Entertainment System and Ataris, in which every time you completed the game, a prompt would appear, asking you to input three letters or initials. I would probably enter in "m-k-y" if I got a high score, so people would know that it was me. And the "END"? Well, that's self explanatory; Lupe felt just like that. He came into the hip-hop game, took his best shots, and did all that he could. His deed was done, and it truly was the end.
Why did I choose mky END as my username? It first started out as an AIM SN. At the time, I was very troubled and depressed, and "Fighters" was one of my favorite songs. I listened to it over and over and memorized every word as if I wrote it myself. I put a twist on Lupe's line and made it into my own, reasoning that my very own social life has died. I felt alone, isolated. I had no one to turn to, no one I could trust, no one I could love. I began to drink, and started to get moody, even yelling at my parents. There was not much meaning to life anymore.
In the eight months from then until now, much has changed. My insight on life has changed. I came to realize that everything comes to an end, but with that comes new beginnings. I gradually became wiser, making note of each mistake I've made, absorbing every lecture I've receieved, taking the words of my friends and family to heart. Still, there is a lot to be fixed. I'm not perfect. I'm only human. But I've realized that the glass is half-full, not half-empty...and that's a start.
"I can see things more clearly, that's why they fear me."
-Nasir Jones
