Bigger than you ever done it,

Time flies when you're having fun. Can you believe it's July already?! June was a good month, starting off hot and ending in flames. July is going to be insane, I can already feel it. I'm out of words for now, so here's my last day of the month. Something different, hope you enjoy it.

This box came for me today in the mail. I've been waiting on this for a pretty long time. Some people already know what's inside, but you'll know what it is tomorrow!

Hello July, I hope you're ready!

You Are Not Alone.

Every once in a blue moon, someone enters your life and makes an impact bigger than you could have ever imagined. (click the image.)


And just like that, they're gone.

For Felipe Bergara and Marissa Jennings, who died in a car crash on Edenwood Drive, only a block away from where I live, and whose deaths I witnessed firsthand.

For Edward "Ed" McMahon, who's voiced graced The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson for as long as America has remembered.

For Farah Fawcett, who was adored by both men and women worldwide as one of the original Charlie's Angels.

For Michael Jackson, who's influence in musical style remains ever-present to this very day, a man truly worth of the title "The King of Pop".

For Billy Mays, who captivated millions of viewers worldwide as he shouted his way to the top, the most enigmatic TV salesperson to ever endorse these products which we all use and love.

Never again will Felipe or Marissa return to their homes and families to have a nice Father's Day Dinner. Never again will we hear Ed McMahon declare, "Heeeeeeeere's Johnny!". Never again will Farah Fawcett entice us on the cover of the newest issue of Playboy. Never again will we see Michael Jackson perform the legendary moonwalk in front of thousands of adoring fans. And never again will we see Billy Mays endorsing another brand new product by boldly declaring, "HI, BILLY MAYS HERE!!!" at the start of each commercial.

These people were legends, heroes and heroines in every sense of the word. They were not solely loved for the entertainment they brought to us, for the songs and television shows and commericals alone. No, they were embraced because they were people, just like you and me, living day-to-day lives and constantly working their hardest to make those around them laugh and smile. They were loved not for what they did, but for who they were.

Throughout the past week alone, I have seen and heard enough with my very own eyes and ears to cause me to question the purpose of my very existence here on this earth. It would seem to me that each and every passing day gives me more and more of a reason to give up, and why I continue trying my hardest in all the things I do despite the odds being stacked against me is a miracle in itself.

It is not uncommon for human beings to feel pangs of loneliness at any given time, out of fear that their loved ones would not be there for them the next day, and this past week has shown us that. And as I myself am feeling as solitary as ever, perhaps on the verge of losing someone very dear to me, I take this time to reflect on the passing of many of the world's most loved people, and to pay tribute to those who's time in this world has been short-lived. Throughout my deepest days and darkest nights, my ordeals and my tribulations, you have been and will be my inspiration, now and forever.





For Felipe, Marissa, Ed, Farah, Michael, and Billy,

Your spirit lives on in our hearts and minds. May you forever rest in peace.

"Ladies man huh?"

HAHA what the heck, not even!

PG (3:30:49 AM): my dad was like

PG (3:30:54 AM): how come everytime i see mikey

PG (3:30:57 AM): he has alot of girls around him

PG (3:30:59 AM): im liek

PG (3:31:00 AM): idk

PG (3:31:01 AM): hes like

PG (3:31:02 AM): o

PG (3:31:04 AM): ladies man huh.

PG (3:31:05 AM): LOL

MT (3:31:08 AM): HAHAHAH WOW

MT (3:31:10 AM): TELL YOUR DAD I SAID HI

PG (3:31:13 AM): LOL

MT (3:31:14 AM): JUST FOR THAT

MT (3:31:14 AM): LOL

MT (3:31:17 AM): I LOVE YOUR DAD

MT (3:31:22 AM): WOW BLOGGING

PG (3:31:22 AM): LOL

PG (3:31:23 AM): <3

slapjack

Ow, ow, ow.

Well, I broke even thanks to playing 13, but I spent $2 on a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger and an order of chicken nuggets. Thanks for getting food for me brah, nice seeing everyone again and even meeting a couple of new people. I'll hit you guys up next time I throw something, you know how we do.

I'm beat, so, catch me later.

Qu’elle surprise

kris (1:54:24 AM): i love you too rotten egg.

^What the hell?! Hahahha, that was random, but I love you too, you banana.

3 in the morning, it's officially Friday, but I'm still stuck in Thursday mode, and apparently someone's still awake in the big house up on the hill, because I can see the light on.

Today was not too bad of a day. For starters, I found out that you can order free shipping supplies from USPS online, and they'll mail it to your house free of charge. No more digging through the garage for old boxes and bubble wrap! That's going to be a huge relief. I'm awaiting the arrival of a few items in the mail still, I can't say what it is yet, but I'll be sure to have pictures up as soon as they arrive.

So what do I do now that I don't have school, can't find a job, and have no one to hang out with? Well, one thing's for sure, the Ab Rocket that mom got dad last Christmas is sure being put to good use, and so are these weights. Don't be too surprised when you see me next fall at school, haha. I've also been making a conscious effort to grub healthier, although with the oncoming weekend, my self-restraint seems to have gone out the window. Just 45 minutes ago, I was busy indulging myself in pizza rolls and a slammin' sammich. Yum, and much healthier then that McGangBang I had yesterday, but thanks for dropping it off for me Nancy!

My last 2 hours of behind-the-wheel training with my instructor is schedule for tomorrow from 5-7 P.M. After I finish up, it's only another month of waiting before I'm finally licensed. Right before school! I'll have to share for now, but since my mom is leaving in September, I'll have the car to myself for two entire weeks, and you know what that means. All I need now is a job. That's the life right there, I'll tell you what.

It's getting late, so I suppose it's time to hit the sheets. Kicking it with my homie Jay Ara tomorrow before he leaves, finna invade Youtube again. Goodnight!

Mmmm,

Say hello to my dinner from earlier today!

There are so many people posting comments on the video of myself ordering a McGangBang, complaining that it's not a "true" McGangBang. Yes, I know! I ordered it correctly, they just didn't assemble it properly. Nonetheless, it was a good burger, but since then I've grown weary of giving it another try, so these days, I just order one double cheeseburger and one McChicken and make the damn thing myself. Looks pretty good, doesn't it?

Today was a so-so day, or should I say "MLIA"? I'm seriously getting sick of these internet fads. They're fun to play around with if you're bored and can be useful for certain things, but they've also spawned a generation of mindless degenerates concerned only with the impression they leave on others and how many more asinine methods of self-satisfying they can thrive on before they need to find something else. Take a step outside for a change, take on a new challenge, take time to listen, take a chance for once and learn to live before you kill your own soul.

Anyways, I've decided to start my workout routine earlier than usual today so I can wash up for bed and hopefully get a proper night's sleep, but I just needed to say:


I miss you badly,
I miss you daily,
I miss you baby,
I miss you crazy.

Bullshit.

Screw this, screw the insecurities, screw whatever you have to say against me, screw your assumptions, screw always being a second option, screw waking up late to another horrible day, screw your twisted vision of what's wrong and what's right, screw staying at home waiting, screw missing out, screw your laziness to do something simple which cost me a great deal, screw all this hoping that I do for nothing, screw the reason why I keep going, screw your unwillingness to see me for what I am, screw you if you're just going to be a snob about it, screw your private conversations about me, screw not being given chances, screw being just another item on the list, screw being the best in the class but not up to the test, screw missing you, and screw my life. I'm not holding back anymore.


And what's really ironic is that I'm eating a breakfast burrito for lunch.

notgivingupness

Tan lines, help me get rid of them!

This picture was taken on Mudduh's Day, by the way.

So what's new? Well, first off I gotta give a shoutout to my pops, happy belated father's day, dad! A lot of things happened that day, and our house was emptier than usual. I think that was the first time I've been that close to death, and driving by it today sent a chill up my spine. I sincerely pray that the two victims of the tragic accident that happened barely a block away are resting in peace, and for the third one to have a swift recovery.

On the bright side, we celebrated father's day with fruits, lots of it, and matching shirts! I can already imagine the look on everyone's faces if you guys decide to show up wearing those shirts next next weekend. At least bring a spare to cover up!

Saturday was Ariane's birthday party, and yes, I know I'm backtracking, but bear with me, will you?! I hope you had a good time Ariane, and I already know you got hella money, so don't be asking me to buy you any more thongs! Just kidding, I still owe you, so let's kick it again someday before summer's over. I went to Kat/Mae's (KatMae's? MaeKat's?) house for a bit after and then headed home to another one of my parents' karaoke bashes, where I was greeted with a plate of crab puffs and a handful of Tiffany! That's Charlie and Hue's dog, by the way, and she's adorable. Can I keep you?! Just kidding. By the way uncle, your car is pretty nice, even if it's as old as I am.

Today gave me some time for R&R. I had intended to wake up early, I even stuck a post-it note on my bedroom door for my mom that read "Call and wake me up at 10, <3", but I ended up sleeping in until around 11:30. Showered and got dressed, taking my sweet time with my hair, even though it only took about five minutes, and then ate lunch with my parents. Uhhhh, why did my mom have to feed me fish! Good thing I had Listerine. I arrived there at around 1:30, only to find that it wasn't even open today, sheesh. It's okay though, I'll come back on Wednesday. Plus I got to sit with you on the grassy hill by the parking lot. Hope you enjoyed the leaves on your legs!

The rest of my day was pure relaxation, as I did absolutely nothing but eat and lay on the couch, watching TV and getting fat. My mom made fried rice for dinner, and asked "Have you been working out?!" Oops, sorry mum. It was the weekend! But I suppose I better start again, since it's Monday after all, so time for me to do my daily routine and then hit the sheets.

Until tomorrow. Mall, video, TF? You know how to reach me!

(: ?

Not yet, it's not quite finished. I'll save it for another time, but today is beautiful, and I miss you.

Capitol & Vistapark

Holy cow, it's Friday already?!

Sorry that I don't have any pictures to reflect on the past week, so here's a guy with a giant turtle.

So it seems like Capitol is my home away from home now, because I've driven up and down that street more times in this past week than I have in the past month. First over to Vistapark, where I saw a fellow having the time of his life just riding down an empty parkway, and then around to King where the pavements are cracked and pothole-ridden, past Story and then full-circle again crossing Quimby (hello Eastridge!) on the way back home to Silver Creek. I just love how Capitol is one giant loop, where everyone has their own little space just to cruise in. Cruising is nice, always nice, calming to soul and easy on the rest.

The remainder of this week is bound to be busy if my plans follow through: one piano lesson, one Court of Honor, one dinner, one BBQ and two parties. My calender is updated, but my wardrobe sure isn't, because I realized today that I have maybe three pairs of shorts that I'd actually consider wearing in public, the rest are all way too skimpy on the length (they're P.E. shorts). More shorts, more tank tops, more white tees, let's visit Target, shall we?

I'm going to have to cut this short, because I've been sleeping way too late. Time to finish up my daily workout routine and hit the sheets. I hope you feel better, goodnight!

GUH.

This is kinda how I feel right now, haha.

Summer so far has been busy to say the least, and I'm hoping this excitement continues throughout the coming months. So today was my friend's birthday, happy birthday Ariane Agustin! I know we don't talk that much but it's nice having someone to joke around with and knowing someone who makes as many stupid cracks as I do makes me feel a little bit better about myself, so DU MA MAY, AN CUC, and BU CU TAO to you. Just kidding. HI BILLY MAYS HERE WISHING YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE!!! I still owe you a birthday present, make sure I don't forget!

I woke up as late as ever today and barely had enough time to eat before my dentist appointment. Two cavities removed without anesthetic, it wasn't quite as bad as I thought, but my gums are still a little swollen. Went home and got ready to head out to Chili's after that; crispy chicken tacos and a molten chocolate cake, what could be better? And the girl next to me kept feeding me her food so I was pretty darn full by the time we finished.

Anyways, I'm sorry for leaving you! I really am, but someone was in need of assistance and I was the only one who could offer advice at the moment. I feel pretty terrible right about now, partly because the fact that I left you hanging didn't really sink in until just a few moments ago. Hopefully you managed without me, and I'm sorry you didn't get a chance to get your bra today, but I'm wishing and praying that I'll see you again soon. And don't feel bad about tonight, it wasn't your fault, and besides, I wasn't alone for long. Don't sweat the things that other people tell you, because you're truly a beautiful person both inside and out who deserves to be treated much better. They may not appreciate you, but I always will. And sorry again for leaving you tonight! Deep down inside you know I wouldn't leave you for the world. I still feel like that construction vehicle up there ^. But just know that I really do mean these things that I say, so cheer up buttercup!


It's way past my bedtime, by the way, so peace out!

between the lines

Haha, so I went to Target earlier and saw hella Creekheads, like 7! Nice seeing you guys again. It's been less than a week but hope summer is going well for everyone and let's kick it soon.


These streets hold my deepest days, this hood taught me golden ways.

left for love

that's just another reason for me to keep on doin' what I do.


your last man was a chump and you can tell him I said it.

right for spite

that's all you ever talk about, all the fucking time.

dairy fairy

What a cutie!

Today was the last day of school!

We cleaned for maybe twenty minutes in AP Chem.
Then my teacher brought in a box of spoons.
Then he brought in stacks of red plastic cups.
Then he brought in two bottles of root beer.
And then he brought in three gigantic tubs of ice cream!
We all made root beer floats :D

After school my mom picked me up, and I made myself a bacon, egg, and cheese hot pocket. I thought it would taste good, but I guess 1P.M. isn't early enough to be considered breakfast anymore. A couple of hours later I had buffalo wings, with loads of buttermilk (ranch) sauce.

I went to graduation after, which was not too great because the sun was super bright and I couldn't see anything! We headed to Katdog's house after to eat pizza. Yum, more cheese. I'm always the last one to finish eating; don't blame me for savoring the flavor! Then auntie dropped off cookie dough ice cream, and I shared a cone with Ms. Natural Disaster over here, which led to yet another fight between us because apparently there's no greatness in our relationship whatsoever, hmph. I'm sick of fighting with you, we'll continue tomorrow!

My pops picked me up. Magics lost, boo. I got home and what do I find in the fridge? MILK! (we ran out earlier that morning.) I looked up and what else do I see? Leftover chocolate cake! Then I checked the oven and what do I spy laying inside? A butter cake!

It's still hard to believe that I am now, technically, a senior. So old! But today was a good day; I microwaved some corn earlier and finished my day with a big cup of green tea. I'm leaving at 8A.M., which is in about six hours, so I'm going to go watch some TV now. I might have a big bowl of Special K tomorrow morning. Goodnight!


P.S. I'm thinking of having a movie night/sleepover sometime soon. Hello summer!

What a wonderful phrase!

I'll update when pictures finally come in, but for now:


Today was good, yesterday was good, Friday was good, this whole weekend was good except for the fact that I got much fatter, and that I'll only continue to do so until this gigantic chocolate cake is all gone.

P.S. Oxi-Clean really does work. No more thai tea carpet stains, goodnight!

Thorn in my side.

Long talk with Faav, just got off about ten minutes ago. Definitely something to think about, and I owe you seven pennies now. Thanks for the talk, I love you Faav.

Thanks to everyone who come to my BBQ, hope you all had fun. Sorry if I sound dead right now, because I am. I'll post pictures up and talk more about it tomorrow, but for now I need to get some rest.


"Each breath of the cool night air, every drop of water brings me closer to God's grace."

"Don't you ever feel lonely sometimes?"

Of course I do. But I hope this blue lobster cheers you up!


There's a lot on my mind right now. Well, there was. If you're wondering why I'm up so late, it's because I was working on my personal statement for English. I'm pretty sure I can get my grade up to a B, no problemo. Anyways, I'm wide awake now.

I hope you're able to understand that sometimes the circumstances are out of your control, and there's not much you can do about it. It's been almost two months since I told you about my "problem", and still I haven't been able to figure out a solution for it. I'm doing my best to keep myself happy, but I'll admit that it does get pretty tough for me sometimes. We're great friends now...which is good! The only problem is that I have to remind myself that we're just that, and nothing more.

Of course, there were several other factors that contributed to my behavior during these past few days. It seemed like every time we talked, you never had much to say: small one-line texts every hour or so, asking me how I'm doing out of the blue before disappearing, and the constantly updating of where your "best friend" was or what he was doing. To tell the truth, it kinda felt like I had subscribed through his Twitter. I suppose you can say I was jealous, or envious, or whatever you choose to call it.

Really, I miss you, and I miss a lot of things about you. I miss the random page-long texts you would send me, sharing random facts about your day with me, asking how mine went. I miss your vibration during Chemistry, and you asking me to tell you stories. I miss the days when you would call me on your breaks at work, just to chat for a bit, or late at night, just to say goodnight, or keep you company as you walked home alone in the dark. I miss me being the best on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays, while you took Mondays, Wednesdays, and Sundays, and we always always shared Saturdays. I miss the "I think I miss you, hmph!"s and the "\\//o Greetings, fellow mongaloid!"s. I miss seeing your comments on my blog posts when I get home from school, and most of all, I miss you.

But don't think even for a second that I would leave you, because I won't. To let something as silly as my emotions come in between this is quite asinine, if I must say so myself. Besides, what are feelings good for, anyways? We're only human, after all.

Well, I hope you get better soon, because a swollen ear and a big head does you good when you're trying to have a good time. Goodnight, and I'll see you and your jello on Saturday!

My fault

Really?


My bad, then.