oi lienda,

bella che fas?

Even I think that it's a little odd for me to be listening to this quintessential summer jam right at this very moment, a little more than a day after the official start of autumn with the chill of night creeping through my bedroom window. I hear tomorrow will be somewhat of a scorcher, though, so perhaps this is just a sign of things to come. Summer may be gone, but its aura lingers on. Come to think of it, this is perhaps one of the smoothest seasonal transitions I've ever experienced.

I'm a mess, I'm a wreck, and while I realize that I used to say that phrase quite often, this is actually the first time in a long time that something has hit me this hard. I never thought you'd be ingrained in my system so quickly, yet surely enough, you're there. You're there, and you're not there, and what eats away at me the most is knowing that you're too busy for me, anyway. You've got your own things to take care of, and that's fine. So do I. I was hoping that perhaps you'd give me a little bit of your time as I have done so for you, but I guess not. Oh well. In a week or so, I'll probably have forgotten all about you, anyway. Just energy invested in someone I saw potential in.

My first week of college life has been exceptionally fantastic. I love walking onto campus and seeing a familiar face or two on the way out. Sometimes I wish I could stick around and chat for a bit, but I've got class to go to, and I'm sure they've got places to be, as well. It's the little things, though, that puts me at ease and lifts my spirits. Every bit counts.

Anyway, its way past my bedtime, hahaha. Goodnight folks. Have a good one!

Mom's home!

After two long weeks, my mother has finally returned home! She brought me back a really cool shirt. I would describe it, but I think it's best if I show you guys, instead, so I'll be sure to take a picture of it the next time I eat pho. You'll see why, haha.

Sorry to anyone who caught me on my bad side today. I've been very irritable the entire day, despite getting off to a good start. School didn't help at all; class today was a snoozefest and the drive home was even worse. Hopefully tomorrow will be a bit better.

I still don't know what to do, or how to feel. Looking at the situation objectively, the best thing to do would probably be to just give up. On the other hand, I still have some hope left in me, but not much. If you fall, then I'll catch you. If you don't, then I won't get in the way. I don't know what else to say, really.

Anyway, I'm off to go work out a bit and then finish up some reading for tomorrow's classes. Have a nice night, everyone!

but you see, the thing is,

I just want you =)

Well, I'm feeling very inspired right now! Today was my first day of school. College life has officially begun, and although I'm still getting lost around campus, something about just being at school feels so familiar. My classes are pretty chill, and I ran into a lot of people today who I haven't seen for quite awhile! A trash can caught on fire as I was walking to my car, haha. Luckily, the drive home wasn't too bad, either.

Anyway, I don't really know what else to say right now. I consider myself incredibly blessed for all the opportunities I've been granted and for all the people in my life. I'm in such a good mood right now! I guess Gabe Bondoc is a big part of the reason why, as well as the moon. I think I have some sort of mystical, spiritual connection with it. I know, sounds stupid, right?! It may not look like a toenail right now, but it's bright and shining and beautiful nonetheless. In a couple of days, it'll be full, and perhaps in time, my life will begin to fill up again as well. I'm definitely loving it right now, though. There's just one thing that would make things feel li- ah, why should I spoil the fun? I'm sure you can figure it out for yourself.



Goodnight!

we could happen

For some reason, all of my lyrics and chords end up being written down on either napkins or receipts from food joints. I guess I just love to eat.

I'm sitting here again on yet another boring and lonesome Saturday night, just jamming to this song as I contemplate on the mysteries of human nature. There's not much to update about the past week or so. It's been pretty chill, and I like the way things are going for me right now, but I must admit that I'm a little uneasy and unsure of how long it'll last.

My sister IM'd me last week and asked if I could play piano at her wedding! I said yes, of course, but now it's dawned upon me that I have no idea what to play. I've been practicing for something else for the past couple of weeks, but I still have no covers to show for it. Sadlife, man. Hopefully by the end of next week, though. I need to get a haircut first, and put in a bit more work. I love my piano, so, so much.

I have to pee. I know nobody ever reads my blog anyway, so I might as well just blurt out whatever's on my mind, hahah. If only it were that easy. Well, off to enjoy the rest of my last Saturday night before school starts!

Hello Mr. Handsome and Ms. Real Beautiful,

Gooooood morning =)

Opportunities Abound.

Picture of the day right here. +1 for using the G1 versions!

And so, the opening weekend of the 2010-2011 NFL season has finally come to a close! The first week of games is always wacky, and this year was no exception. What happened, Colts?! Although there were some blunders and mishaps during yesterday's game, my beloved Packers came out with the W over the Eagles yesterday and are off to a 1-0 start. There won't be much time for celebrating, though, because there's still tons of work to be done, but I've got a good feeling about this season. There's a reason why everyone is placing the Packers atop their list of Super Bowl-bound teams, and excitement is definitely in the air. I can't help but smile as I think about the next sixteen (and hopefully more!) Sundays of nothing but football. GO PACK GO!

All this optimism may be getting to my head, though. I decided to take Quiatchon's advice and just go for it, breaking any personal rules and boundaries that I may have had before in hopes of finding something worthwhile. I took a gamble again last week and came out empty-handed, and although I've pretty much let it go at this point, a small part of me tells me that I'm giving up way too early. How much longer can I go on without making any process before this becomes nothing more than just energy invested in someone I saw potential in?

Last but not least, I woke up to a couple of texts today that definitely gave my spirits a much-needed lift, and although our plans didn't go through, I had a lovely day nonetheless. Thanks for the reminder that I don't need another July, and that I certainly don't need a repeat of what happened between * and I. I love y'all, hope you guys know that.

It's my last week of "summer" before school starts again, and I intend to enjoy every damn second of it. Looks like we're getting a bit of sweater weather, too! I can't wait until it's "Starbucks Season" again. More on that later; for now, it's back to working out.





In a few...or now, if you want. Up to you.

take a guess

Don't you hate it when something's slipped your mind and you know that you have it somewhere in there, but you just can't remember?

Not that it's happening to me right now or anything (I think), but I was watching Camp Rock 2 earlier (I'm late, I know), which made me think about High School Musical, which made me reminisce about the last week of school before summer vacation started. All the seniors took their finals a week earlier than everybody else and didn't have to go to school during the final week, but I had to go back anyway to turn in some book fines, so I decided to drop in on my third period psychology class after I took care of my business. My teacher was like, "Hey, what are you doing here! No seniors allowed!", hahah.

Anyway, Kelli and I somehow ended up talking about High School Musical and for some damn reason we just couldn't remember the name of Corbin Bleu's character! I knew it was "Chad", but as much as we strained our brains, we simply just couldn't remember what his last name was. I even thought that it was "Black" for awhile, because of, well, obvious reasons. I'm stupid. But hey, "Chad Black" sounds like a pretty legit name, right?!

Our conversation started in the classroom (well, we were actually in the library that day) and went on well into lunchtime. So, after about half an hour of having to live with the excruciating pain of not knowing Chad's last name and asking over a dozen or so people if they knew, I decided to give up on it and go home. And at that very moment, RIGHT when I said bye to everyone and was about to give Kelli a hug, it popped into my head. "I GOT IT!!! IT'S DANFORTH!!!". Everybody looked at me as if I were mental, but man, I was pretty stoked that I finally remembered! We all burst into uncontrollable laughter at how it took us almost three-quarters of an hour just to remember a stupid last name.

Man, I'm so forgetful at times. I actually consider myself to have very good memory, especially when it comes to peoples' names, but there are also times when I have a brain fart for no apparent reason, which is so incredibly frustrating, but also very exhilarating and relieving once I finally remember what I needed to. I think that I think too much. Little passing thoughts always occupy my brain, random blurbs and musings about the most irrelevant things, like avocados, or guitars, or why my refrigerator calls them "ice cubes" when they come out looking more like ice wedges. I decided to delete my Twitter account a few months ago because I thought it was distracting, but look at me now! And it's not as if there's someone I could tell all this random stuff to, now, is there? Hahah, gg.


Oh look, an invitation for my little cousin's third birthday came in the mail just now. Looks like I'll be in Socal again from September 24th - 27th!

All for you.

This little light will go away if I won't be real,
This little light will run away if I don't tell you how I feel.

Please stay, don't stray, help me to tolerate myself.

Gate 101.

Another smooth track by my man Jeff Bernat.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about chances, or fate, as some people call it. I don't think that most people realize how much potential there is, all around us, in so many different forms, shapes, and sizes. Many of us are too busy or perhaps just too damn oblivious to see this. Have you ever sat down and wondered to yourself, "What if I had talked to her instead?", or "How would things be today if I had given this person a chance, rather than that one?". It's these little questions that bug me the most, knowing that whatever has happened is all in the past now, and there's no rewinding of the clock. No do-overs, no second chances, just time lost.

Jeff's song is so incredibly simple in both structure and content, but it's something that I go through almost every day, each and every single time that I go out, whether it's a quick stop at Starbucks or spending an entire day catching up with an old friend. Everywhere I turn, I see possibilities all around me, more and more opportunities to expand my horizons. Yet for somebody so easily captivated, I unfortunately happen to also be just a bit too decisive, and before I know it, I'm a man on a mission again. I know what I want. I'm looking right at you, but you're not looking back. So now what?



In a few.

the ruggedness, lyrical terrorist

rock, rock on.

Hi world, meet my sister-in-law! It's been a little more than two years since she and my brother got married, but I swear it feels like they're just as young as ever. She's Filipina, but whenever we go out to eat at a Vietnamese restaurant, all the waiters and waitresses think that she's Vietnamese, too. It's pretty funny when they start speaking Vietnamese to her and in the end, she just stares at them like, "What?!" Hahaha.

This picture was taken exactly a week ago at the Frank151 x The Seventh Letter celebration event at Suru LA. You know what they say: time flies when you're having fun, and it feels as if it's been a month rather than just a week. A taco in one hand, a drink in the other, and the DJ spinnin' throughout the night are just some of the key elements that come together to create that summertime vibe, and although it's already September, summer is definitely still in the air. Well, for me, at least.

Despite the perfect setting, though, things have unfortunately slowed down to a near-standstill. Whatever I'm doing, it ain't workin'. The good news is that school is starting in less than three weeks. I've got mixed feelings about this, but something tells me that it'll all work out just fine in the end. For now, I'll just sit back and enjoy the rest of my summer. Feel free to join me. I love me some good company.




In a few.